Wednesday, June 29, 2011

A Love Letter...


In the circle of those fine made arms, crafted and soothed by divine fingers, watching the sinuous motion of your muscles I arrived home, to the place that saw to the very soul of me. The soft meeting place, where your neck flows into your shoulder which holds evidence of my secret tears, there lies the heart of the riddle that is me. Your face is an impossible dream, I have chased all my days.

In the low words you speak only to me, in whispered admissions and the sunshine of our laughter is the salvation of this jaded heart. You are the silent contemplation of a painting so fine made, my human eyes can not accept that such perfection stalks the blighted earth. Seeing the multitudes of beauties in you, brings me faith in a higher thing. The touch of calloused hands cupped in the curve of my face, just for the feel of my skin, infinitely more precious than all the gems in all the world. Reciting sonnets in the language of touch, brings me to tears, making me remember the thrill of first things. Making me pure. Enslave me with out games, no manipulations, the clean edges of your want breaking down my walls.

Engaged this razor mind, laying your heart open, talking truths to me, making my spirit name you its equal. Equal to me, unafraid and unbowed, you are the master here, and I give you dominion of this place, of me. That you see my deep six darkness and walk with me in the absence of light, makes my cynic mind acknowledge miracles. Among the masses you alone are anointed with the love undying, that would give my life to preserve yours.

You are my Knight, My Precious Thing, A Forever After and I am unafraid. I gamble it all, render down the treasure of this life for this one chance to walk your paths. Iam the salt of the tears you can not cry, I go with you whether you descend to hell or climb the stairways of heaven.

Unattainable legend, You are the love I deserve, My equal, Body, Mind and Spirit...Although like a legend, you exist inside the confines of my mind. The way I think Love should be, With out artifice, free of one up man ship, soul deep. Devastating and recreating...

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

why...


"My candle burns at both ends; It will not last the night; But, ah, my foes, and, oh, my friends - it gives a lovely light."


The eternal quest for man has always been immortality... Everyone wishes to live forever. To be eternal and unchanging. Not a brief blink but a long unflinching gaze. The motivation behind it all is a deathly fear of being forgotten, for it to have been as if you never existed...
Mortal life is so transient that we seek every possible way, to leave a mark, something to remind the universe that brief and sputtering though it may have been, our lights shone. The secret to immortality does not lie in alchemy, occult practises or preserving your skin using chemicals...
True immortality lies in legacy, those we have loved, the lives we have touched, the joys we engineered!
The secret is not in length of life but in how it was lived.
Life is a secretive mistress and only the brave may glimpse her true face.
A life lived in fear is a life half lived...Love recklessly and often as if your heart has never known hurt, be that free joyful thing that confounds the world. Those who are afraid of life can never embrace life, fear of thing will never grow in to love from the thing...
There is light unknown in you, potentials, places... whole multiverses of the magnificence of you letting your light shine. While others toll in the dark, it is your light that lifts their gazes higher, that dares those on the cliff to fly...
You will then truly live forever seared on the consciousness of all you encounter, your legend will outlive your breathe...

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I am


I am the hope my ancestors had as they left the green fields of home, the wings of the prayer that kept them afloat as they sailed the spice sea. I am the strength that never could bow, I am the power of those shoulders that made sand fruitful. I am the dignity of untouchables, I am the pride of royalty, the golden of their sub continental skin, the bite of chilli in their blood.

I am the deep dark place in the heart of all men, I am covert and secret. I am anger unleashed with murderous intent. I am the primal thing, killing before I am killed. I am the dark blessed shelter of night, in which all manner of deviancy is possible. I am unseen bone deep wrenching want which destroys the very object of its desire.

I am the light inside the dreams of children, the fragility of their innocence. I am innocence untouched, the naivety of untried wings. Iam the smooth brow of childhood, the guiless conversation. I am the preserver of all things, un-artifaced beauty.Iam like smooth music, once heard never forgotten. I am the unbridled crazy dancing under full moons. I am the Rhythm inside your hips when they hear a drum beat.

Iam the honesty of words that slip out, the truth of late nigh whispers. I am that first rush of attraction, racing like adrenalin. I am the joy of finding your mate, a mirror in the rocky world. I am that sensation of flying when you are actually falling in love. I am the blind optimism of a broken heart that grows dreams in its shady cracked places. I am the beatification of someday, even in the face of nothing.I am the unknown dreams curled beneath the hearts of those that love forgot

I am all, I am many. I am everyman and no man, I am woman.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Moon Light...


Gleaming bone pale in the dark night, the domes of the old tomb rose before him. Like a the steady torture of a waking dream, he hears her voice calling out to him from the echoing recesses of its marble confines. Before his blind eyes, the mists of imagination draw the face of the men he killed to protect the beauty before him. The once and lost king dreamt the blood of carnelians, the cool forest of malachite and dark traceries of obsidian, he saw the flow and flush of the ingrained riches in the ice marble walls, all that he had dreamt but had never seen. Through the bars of his high prison, his dimming eyes continued the vigil, every now and then his daughter would visit but even then he could not look away from the mausoleum. It was his pain, his only pleasure, each day when the muzzein sounded he prayed the same litany, that he be layed to rest by her side. Even in his wakeful sleep he dreamt the domes had cracked open or the fort been razed to the ground, he would wake with a start and make sure. The tomb stood there a silent testament to his power, his will and ultimately his love. Sometimes he thought he had fallen short, for wonderous white as it's walls of marble were, they, could not equal the golden glow of her skin, as detailed and amazing as was the tombs geometry, they could not equal the symmetry of her face, as rich and opulant as were the tombs finishings, they could not equal the lush curves of her body , the vivid colour of her mouth. The tomb he had long discovered was a silent thing, it could talk low words of poetry. Though they may call him and archetect of the ages, the building he built was cold comfort. Every second of his vigil, he felt her loss like a constant ache. Wonder though it was for all who came and saw, to him inside below the ground, lay the greatest treasure of this unimaginable place. He watched the tomb until that night he saw her again. In unimaginable light every inch gleaming and renewed, she came at last to bring her lord home. In the morning, his daughter came and said the mourning prayer. Her brother was of iron resolve but even he was moved and under the central dome next to his wmother, he lay the body of his father. And as the last muzzien sounded and prayers were said, the citizens turned as one to the tomb. Suspended in the marvel of white marble, they finally saw what the old king watched: love .

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Fire Bird



Phoenix in charcoal with oil eyes

Ten Things About Me ...(you probably didnt want to know!)


1. I absolutely love comics...I collect X-Men, Thor and Spidey!!

2. I read ancient Greek, Latin, Hindi and Sanskrit.

3. I am obsessed with Mythology and faerytale...

4. I actually do believe in happy endings...ssh dont tell anyone

5. Deeply spiritual, love learning about all religions, particularly hinduism, reading the Vedas, Ramayana and Mahabhratha...will change how you feel about hinduism...

6. I love food... reading about it, eating it, making it...

7. Hello my name is Atelisha and I am a writer of purple prose...Sorry i overwrite but i will not stop!

8. I am not not not a lesbian!!

9. I have 9 tattoos

10. I am actually who you see, Whats on the box is inside the box!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

There be Monsters


Shimmering light flooded the vale as the knights crested the ridge of Fire Mountain.
Dawn had come at last to this cursed valley, where peasants cowered in fear of the mighty Shadow Wing. Deep in the shadows of Fire Mountain, the princess of the Fire Plain rose and the slow whine of sword sharpening filled the air.

Sent by her father as a last sacrifiace to the Dragon Shadow Wing, Princess Aurora detested the plains kingdom. She hated her that her father would give up his daughter before his crown. She hated her sisters who had planted that idea in his ear. She hated the knights who never raised a sword when she was snatched away. She hated the people who danced in glee thinking they were finally free. Yes Princess Aurora was a darkling thing, half elven like her mother, she had been allowed to run free and so she was fearless, even in the hidden places of Fire Mountain, she stalked like a cold shadow. She watched the knights progress into the vale and smiled grimly, between them at long last the surrendered crown of the plains king.


The Knights as they bore the crown kept their eyes to the ground, for who alive wants to see death on wing swooping down like lightening loosed. Their eyes ran from the sulphurous fumes and upon their ears fell strange keening of beasts they coudnt discern. Even the brightest felt the resolve shake as they arrived at the dragons keep. Setting the crown upon the stone, they prepared to wait, the supersticious began began prayers to the gods that death would be sift and the dragon merciful.


Aurora sat upon the highest ridge and watched the knights hudled like sheep. The fear rolled of them like a palpable wave and she knew the dragon could scent these things. Then from across the mountain range came the sound of massive wings, Aurora felt her heat quicken and on the horizon appeared the Dragon. Shadow Wing was a mighty thing, with scales like elven steel, his wings dark beating the air with massive strokes. From darkest grey to lightestest silver, he was as if of shadow spun. The hardest steel, the surest arrow could not harm his enchanted hide, for Shadow wing was magick, a mage among dragons. He had more power in a single gesture than humans could fathom in a lifetime of searching. He knew of ancient things, begining things and secrets at the heart of life itself, its force, it purpose and its fire. As he landed before the knights, two expired just like that, no force of claw or flame.

Aurora watched and notched her arrows and carefully took aim, she was determined He would die He who brought her pain. She watched as Shadow Wing took the knights one by one snuffing their souls like guttering sparks, in the last second she drew back her arm and loosed her single arrow. With a meaty thump, it hit home and a death keen filled the air.

Aurora picked her way through the dead littering the valley, triumph singing in her veins. she danced a jig amongst the dead and watlzed over their cold hands, they would never asked her to dance freezing her out of court. She skipped and giggled amid the mess, singing courting songs until a thunderous rumble stopped her dead and she turned to find the dragon. Shadow Wing seldom laughed but now he couldnt stop. A princess who despised knights and fell in love with a dragon! Who would have even known...

Aurora picked up the gore spattered crown and placed it on her head. She ran her hands down her claws like she knew he liked, she dropped her armour among the stones and he delighted in her fine skin, surely a fire soul she was, the princess who dared love a dragon. Shadow Wing swept her up to her castle in the villlage, installed her on the throne, magnificent and fiery with rubies in her hair. Who would oppose her, no one would dare.

And now all the people when entering Fire Plain, look upon the castle, 'keep your gaze down' they warn children passing in the yard. ' There be monsters' And they do not mean the dragon whose fire fills the air. The monster is the princess for who would even dare to love a scaly beast and enslave him without chains, surely their new queen was a monster wonderous and fair. Yes, warned the elders there be monsters there.

She is thick
Lush expanses of scented soft curves for touch
Exploding across your tongue
First taste last ecstasy
Thick
The mazes of her razor mind encircle
Ensorcel, deeper still
Clap trap shut
She is thick
Honeyed lust
Your fingers slick
With tears of your discovery
Thick
With life
You drink it up
And still live in drought
She is thick
Deep six darkness
Thick
Golden divine sight
She is thick
Unctuous sumptuous
Spread open
Like a banquet
Thick
And you tear apart
Trying to reach her heart
She is thick
Layers over layers
Prayers over prayers
She is thick
Like roils of incensed smoke
Intoxicating
Emancipating
Thick
That you break yourself
And she touch your soul
She is thick
Remake yourself
And be whole
Thick
With the world
She is thick
So thick
Yearn to learn her trick
Love her
Like fire to wick
Love only leave you
Thick

faery tale


They say its nigh impossible…

Those that know for who would love the boy king, for his heart when in castle were gold and furs and men and women to cater to his every whim. They came from far and wide, the elven maids and the human too, all hungry for their share all wanting glory , seeing themselves in crowns, wanting to ride beside him and call his kingdom theirs. And he was hungry for something he did not know and in maiden after maiden he couldn’t find that glow. They came and went and time was spent at sport and fun but hours should have been spent in being a king.

Until she came
She came from a land of warriors pure, never without her sword and traced with s scars both young and old. She didn’t come for furs; she did not come for gold she did not want to share his crown. She came for him and the bards can never tell how the warrior in love fell. But she did not say nary a word, she came cloaked in shadow of night, gifted him her body and left with the light. They spoke of many things both shadow and light and she saw in him potential for flight. He took her gift and thought it flesh but she held hope their souls would mesh. And so it was that he took her for mere, she knew in heart that deepest fear. She wanted to gift him her heart, find out his dreams and make his fear depart. She would forsake the kingdom and fight by his side, thread his paths and with him abide. But in the dark he did not see, he was entranced by maidens whose beauties he could see. And at time he would forget and fall in with the maidens set. She would pine and vacillate between tears and anger and practice with swords till her scars so fine bled anew and she was once again ruled by pain, the only freedom she knew.
Then one autumn the moon rose whole, amber and luminescent touching the soul. She came to his chamber, as she did and there in the darkness by the curtains hid. Was her chosen and only, her lover and her friend
And his arms and under his light was another body bent. She was covered in gold of royal make and in her voice innocence and sweetness was fake. Alight with worldly desire, even as he loved her she did not come afire. She who came in the night, left him tears more brilliant than the jewels wrapped around the princesses hand. She could not fathom not rising to match his stroke or to have eyes only for gold. She fled into the night and though of her folly with bright hard hate. As the forest opened before her, she disappeared from human sight and in the tower watching with sconces bright only a young knight took note of this hasty flight.

Morning came slowly to this place and the boy king woke to the face. in the slow light of mornings grace, she did not run her fingers over his skin or see him like a fine made thing. She was entranced by her ornaments and engaged in rubbing them like firmament. He rose from her bed and did not believe his own head. Was she a queen, a lover and friend, a joy that would have no end?

She was none of these and he found himself longing for low words and wise things. He awayed to the window, mayhap that was her sword singing. But alas it was the soldiers in formation preparing to protect his nation. He ignored the false implorations and began a lengthy search to all the places they covered in night time explorations.

In the garden where the harvest moon gazed with envy as he unveiled her skin and made her ache to let him in. On the shore of the murmuring sea where she whispered great secrets she had learned and showed him the wisdom she earned. In her quarters covered by ivy, her scent thick on the air and remembered the unbidden promises she made him there. He found the riches she had left there and he remembered putting that crown in her hair. How she spurned this treasure and told him that this fire between them was beyond the measure of any pleasure gold could give. He remembered her eyes dark with unsaid words and cursed himself as he had never heard. He called every member of the night guard, and ceaselessly questioned their sight. Then the young knight was before the king and he told how she had disappeared into nothing.
He wept sorrowful tears but it was too late and reality was as he feared. His friend, his lover, his chosen queen was nowhere that could be seen. He called sorcerers and magick makers, promised them anything they would take. But they too were sorry and aimed to look but it was if death his love had took. He governed the kingdom without a foil and through the years with much toil, he never stopped believing that she would return, her paths she would spur n to be his once again.

But the bards they tell a saddened tale, he passed alone and his quest to find her did fail. They say she had joined the darkling hunt and rode with Odin ceaselessly warring. That she was a Valkry who be free when Ragnarok would rise again. Others they tell a sweeter tale of how after many years travail, she returned with Odin over that vale. And Odin wily one eye lord, sent her to the home her heart sought. And she and the boy king ruled for many a year and rose with Ragnarok, immortal and without fear. They say their love was a mighty thing and that bowed many a king and inspired many bards to write in yards.

What is truth and what be tale only the warrior or the king may avail. For here lies the heart of my cant.
See with eyes of your soul to find the one who will make life whole. Bewitching as are things of the world, love is of souls or so I have heard. Favor of gods and wealth beyond measure, pale before love, the truest treasure.