dreams

It unfolded like I always thought it would.
and now I've passed my happily ever after
and ventured far from where this story began
Somehow I lost the thread of our tale
or perhaps it never was
Maybe between the whiskey and smoke
I dreamed it all
The taste of you
The feel of fine fingers
I maybe made it all up
too many dreams
too many hopes
Lay down and drowned
in the great crack inside time
I play it over
and over
and I see me
the words i spoke
My naked desire
and then i know
I gave you promises.
I gave you words
words i had never given before
and wished I had the whole universe
I would have given you that
You spoke naught
And even though its untrue
I know
I dreamed it all
And I awoke alone
I dreamed it all
Unseemly me with you
Convince my mind
It dreamed it all
Convince my heart
It doesn't hurt at all
I am walking now
inside my own
hell
but I only dreamed it all.